Thinking...

I've been spending the last few days deep in thought. I've decided to think of this project as a delicious luxury. I have complete and total artistic freedom. I may never be this free again! I may get hired onto a show and spend years (fingers crossed) realizing someone else's vision week after week. But for this small window of time, the summer of '07, I am creating an original TV show: a whole new world with new people with problems and aspirations and quirks and conflicts, navigating their way through life, constantly growing and revealing their true selves. Does it get any better than that? I feel a little God like.

I've discovered that every project worth doing is worth setting intentions for. Obviously I intend to have this pilot be an excellent, professional sample: structurally sound, full, hilarious, intelligent, warm and inspiring. But more than that, I feel like it's an opportunity to begin sending a message to the Universe about what I really want to do as a writer. I can't think of anything more fulfilling than being able to write stories, week after week, about characters I care about, that make me laugh, that grow and contribute and mess up and make it right, or not, who aspire and succeed and fail.

Ultimately, what I want to be creating are stories that anchor spiritual truths with comedy. I know for a fact that that combination evolves me and, because you get what you give, I intend to give as much spiritualized-comedy as humanly possible. Maybe it's in the form of shticky angels. Maybe it's through stories that deal with the struggles of right and wrong and the relief that comes from releasing that antiquated paradigm. However it manifests, I intend to start articulating my vision through this project.

Am I still dying to dive naked into a vat of Office scripts? Of course. Do I still secretly pine to be the newest writer on 30 Rock? Who doesn't? Is there a part of me that just wants to break off a piece of some of the best shows on TV, grow it like so much petri, slap my name on it and call it a Pilot? You betcha. But for now, I'm going to put all of that aside and believe in my heart of hearts that OF COURSE I can write a fantastic, original pilot! I'm going to trust that if I show up the ideas will too....

Words I Wish I Had Written: "Scratch a pessimist and you'll find a disappointed optimist."